I think I've heard this prayer millions of times, but until I looked for a picture to add to my blog I never realized that there was more to it. I've only ever seen the first part of it. What a powerful prayer and one that sums up the last 15 months of my life.

The past 24 hours have been very difficult. Yesterday, April 5 at 1:40 pm I said goodbye to my best friend. We have been married for 37 years and I am so lost now that he is gone. I've watched him suffer with so much pain and hardly ever complain. I think I'm still so numb that this day has finally arrived. I so wanted Mr. B to experience a total healing and although he did not receive it here on earth, he has now received it in Heaven.

Rest in peace, Mr. B. My heart is breaking now that you are gone.
4/6/2013 12:03:04 am

I'm so terribly sorry to hear that Mr B has gone. My deepest sympathy to you Shelley xx

4/6/2013 08:25:18 am

I've read your blog from time to time. I have myeloma too. I'm sad to read your blog today. Obviously there's nothing useful I can say but my thoughts are with you.

4/6/2013 12:24:52 pm

4/6/2013 03:06:08 pm

oh, shelley, i am so sorry for the loss of your beloved daryl. i hope you will take solace in knowing that you were a superb caregiver, loving, compassionate, his most determined advocate, and the love of his life. but it seemed somehow that myeloma, that insidious and cruel beast, was just too aggressive and the treatments were not able to stop it in it's tracks.

when you are grieivng, as i know you are, please, please allow yourself to feel some measure of relief. relief does not cancel out the grief, but is a form of grace given to us to comfort and aid us with coming to terms with the truth that though daryl is no longer of this earth, he is no longer suffering the physical and emotional anguish - offered as a tender mercy to assuage the pain of loss, a gift given to all who suffer loss. i keep you close to my heart, holding out hope that all the accomplishment of happy days of joy you and daryl had together will be the memories to comfort and sustain you.

love, xoxo

karen, TC

4/7/2013 11:43:53 am

Missing Daryl as much as you do now, it is probably little comfort that he is experiencing 'supreme happiness' on the Other Side, but I want to assure you that you will receive a message from him, perhaps more than one, assuring you that all is well and he will be with you still. I went to a John Edward "Crossing Over" event and had many questions answered about a loved one. It is like putting them on a plane to a destination where there are no phones, no mail... but love does not die and he knows you need to hear from him. Look for the small signs; he is near. You are not going crazy....

Maria Speiser
5/24/2013 01:37:22 pm

I feel compelled to offer you my deepest sympathy. Although you dont no me I have been following your blog for about 6 month. Since my brother in law was diagnosed with MM. It gave me comfort to knew someone else was feeling the same struggles that we were going thought! I want you to know you made a different though your writing and telling your story. May Mr. B rest in peace now no pain!!!
God Bless you and may he give you strength!!! Live your life and be happy as Mr. B would want to! While I know our outcome is the same may God give us the same strength to see us thought!!!


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